Praise Jesus' Holy Name!! My sweet RoseFlower is doing better today! Just got home from seeing her. She got to go to bed early last night! She was warm (thanks to my precious earthly daddy (KingBee) running home yesterday during visiting time and bringing her the blanket from her own bed), and the little girl in the room with her wasn't purging all night (please pray for her, too), and the staff was quiet last night (instead of talking aboutvampires and the new movie in that vampire werewolf saga that is so popular--can't believe I can't remember the name of it! The little boy that played Shark Boy in the wonderful movie, "Shark Boy and Lava Girl", is all grown up to a teenager now and plays the werewolf in it...I'm sure you know this huge movie..you know you are supposed to pick team whoever or team other whoever guy....)--or at least RoseFlower didn't hear them!!
She was in really good spirits today. Very sleepy. The meds schedule there is different from what she is used to at home, but I talked with a nurse and I think things should be better for my girl. They had all sorts of goodies for the kids for the 4th! Ice cream sundaes, cheesecake, ice cream bars.... she was happy about that. Sweets are a treat for us here at home! And she got to watch the new "Alice in Wonderland", with beloved Johnny Depp! And some other movies.
I'm so happy that she is there. I know that she will get the care that she needs-- intensive therapy-group, individual, then classes on stress management, social skills, coping skills,-- I could use some of the classes listed on this schedule here myself!! Especially stress management! Whew!! If I could only do art all the time...that would just fix everything! 8) But, alas... my family needs to eat, they want clean clothes, they really enjoy having a house that is clean and free of debris (books, shoes, journals, markers, library books, library videos--usually the really cool National Geographic ones about the ocean or another country or animals in Africa or something!..the debris is exciting and wonderful...but it is a bit aggravating when it is everywhere-but if they were to be working on art all the time, too-would they notice?? I bet not! ;) ) lying about (in the form of various and sundry items that are usually piled up again within 15 minutes of putting them away! how does that happen anyway???).... these are very demanding people that I live with you see. So I'm still trying to figure out a way to make my 29-30 hour a day art plan work! If you have any ideas...please let me know! I would be everso grateful!
Have a blessed day and be strengthened because, “I have set the Lord always before me, because he is at my right hand, I will not be shaken.” Psalm 16:8
God is so GOOD! Praise His Mighty and Wonderful Name!!
I don't know where this hospitalization will lead in terms of the criminal case that the authorities would never follow through on....but I am resting in My God's arms, trusting that He is in control of everything....and more importantly, that He will take care of everything....every detail...He knows the number of hairs on your head and mine! He cares about us that much!! So of course He will take care of all of your burdens and mine.
I know that I am very vague in many details. It is because the earthly authorities did not and are not doing their jobs correctly...well let me rephrase that. My Precious Lord is working on another timetable. At first, I am ashamed to admit that this crushed my spirit...I am so ashamed that I let my lack of faith, my flesh wanting to take over everything and just take care of it... consume me.
And yes, I still have times (when I hear of others being sent to prison or given the death penalty while I know that there is a very dangerous person that is walking free that committed much worse crimes than the person I just heard about on tv), when I will slip back a bit and get angry. I will again want to be Angelina Jolie from Tomb Raiders and just take the law into my own hands. But I know that is not what my Lord wants me to do. I confess my slip and my wrong thoughts to my Precious Saviour...and guess what??? He is there..was always there...with open arms..just waiting for me to get over my little temper tantrum.
And you know what...it doesn't matter what you may have done in your life...or what you may not have done in your life.....you can find a character in the Bible to compare with your circumstances. And then do you know what??? When you come to our Precious Lord Jesus Christ's throne....He will love you anyway! This is not to say that you still may have to deal with the natural consequences of your choices....but God can turn your life around and use every single horrible mistake you have ever made--and turn it around for His Glory and His Good to further His Kingdom!! And when He does that....do you know what happens to you?? If you give your life to Him... you will truly become a new creature.
The closer you draw yourself to Jesus...the closer He will draw HImself to you. And the old things that you used to do...maybe you drank too much (that was me in college), or weren't as sexually pure as maybe you could have been (check that box for me, too), and remember in Matthew 5:27-28--- You have heard that it was said, "You shall not commit adultery", but I say to you, that everyone who looks on a woman to lust for her has committed adulter with her already in his heart. -- Wow, that is pretty heavy duty stuff that Jesus was saying there, wasn't it?! In that same chapter of Matthew (5), just a few verses up (21-22), Jesus talks about the connection between unrighteous anger and murder...wow. Now that doesn't mean you can't ever be angry---remember even Jesus got angry in the temple (His Father's house) when the vendors were selling their wares--he even turned their tables over! That is pretty angry! That story is Matthew 21:11-13, by the way. But Jesus' anger was righteous anger. He was defending His Father's House.
How do you tell the difference between the 2 kinds of anger??? Here is a fabulous article that really helped me with that http://www.rbc.org/questionsDetail.aspx?id=46120&Topic=610 .
Okay....sorry about the bunny trail there! But those old things that you used to do...when you are in God's word, staying close to Him....now this is a really cool secret that you don't hear just anywhere ;)...... you will not want to do those things as much anymore. Not that you won't be tempted, but if you pray for God to give you strength..He will!
I have no idea why I am writing all of this tonight. Just know that it is true.
Much love and many hugs to you all...
Isaiah 41:10
Do not fear, for I am with you;
Do not anxiously look about you,
for I am your God.
I will strengthen you, surely I
will help you,
Surely I will uphold you with My
righteous right hand.
Sunday, July 4, 2010
Happy July....!!
Hello and Happy July to everyone! Not sure where you are, but here...it is very very hot outside! Whew! My mom (QueenBee) always says she is solar powered- hee hee hee!- but even she is saying it is hot, so you know it is really, really hot here!!! And our hottest months aren't even here yet!!
Yes, there has been a blank spot in my postings. We've been riding the rapids here since I last wrote. I had to put my precious RoseFlower in the hospital last night. I know that she is where she needs to be...that our Precious Saviour is in control of everything, and taking care of His baby....
She has been regressing for about 5 months now. Some small things at first, then some bigger backwards steps. There was a huge event night before last where she actually said that she wanted to go to hospital. I trust her doctor completely...with her life, as he literally saved her life about 4 years ago. He agreed that she needed to go to hospital.
Not sure if her meds need tweaking, or if she just needs some intensive therapy, I know that she will get either or both...whatever she needs. Would you please pray for her?? During visiting time today, she was crying so hard...begging me to take her home. She was very scared because now she is in the teen unit (previously-she was in the children's unit, that was 4 years ago). She was so scared because the other patients were talking about how they had overdosed, how many drugs they had taken....they were cursing alot... my RoseFlower is getting a look at the real world and it's harshness.
She is such a tender, loving, giving soul. She always has been. Even though she is 15, because of her traumas, emotionally she is much younger. And because of the recent regressions... she seems very young emotionally at times--still loving teddy bears, little animal toys, make believe stories... So this culture shock for her is very difficult.
And she is having visual and audio hallucinations. They are very scary to her. She knows that they are not real...but it doesn't make it any easier to hear the words, hear the demons and what they tell her to do....and to see the scary demon-like images that are surrounding her.
Thank you so very much for your prayers. I know that our God is a loving God...I know that nothing happens without Him knowing about it...and I know that all works together for good for those that love Him. And she definitely loves her Jesus. She could only bring in one book and a journal. She packed a whole bag full, but without hesitation, picked her Bible and very willingly left the rest.
Ok...on to other things....we have been creating loads of artwork lately! It is so wonderful for the soul! RoseFlower was going to show me how to take pics on the digital cam and then how to post them on the blog. I may just try and figure another way to post our work. We have been having alot of fun. The colors are just gorgeous!!!
God is so amazing to give us all of these beautiful things (trees, clouds, flowers, different textures, paints, sparkles....it is endless!!)...and give us minds to create and imagine and play with! God is just such a loving and amazing God! I cannot fathom His love for us....every time I try, I am just speechless... He sings over us at night if we ask Him to, He keeps us safe from our enemies, He answers our prayers---that are so much better many times that what we ask for!!!, He holds us and comforts us if we become scared or cry, He forgives us when we mess up...no matter how bad we mess up-He is waiting for us with open arms to love on us and forgive us. I could just go on and on!! Just Praise His Holy Name!!
The past few months, I didn't have any words to write here. I couldn't get them to form coherently, or I was too exhausted and would just fall into bed...talking to my Lord until I fell asleep. At times, I only had a very short period of time to get on my computer. I would go to flickr.com . Anything you can imagine...so many beautiful images are on http://www.flickr.com/ . If you are having a rough go of it... it is wonderful just to go and enter one of your favorite things to search...and it is amazing how many gorgeous pictures you will find of your favorite thing! It is free to open an accout, just takes about a minute, then you can click to make pics your favorites, so you can go back and enjoy them later. Just a really cool place to go and hang out...when you are too stressed to read words, or think, or type words. Somehow the beauty of the colors breaks through that stress...and you can relax, and then hopefully sleep better.
Please know that I am praying for everyone that reads anypart of this. And if you have a specific prayer request, please email me at the address to whichever side it is...maybe the right side??
May God be with you and your families and bless you abundantly! If you celebrate the Fourth of July (in America), I hope you have a wonderful and fun 4th!!
Much love.....MamaRose
Yes, there has been a blank spot in my postings. We've been riding the rapids here since I last wrote. I had to put my precious RoseFlower in the hospital last night. I know that she is where she needs to be...that our Precious Saviour is in control of everything, and taking care of His baby....
She has been regressing for about 5 months now. Some small things at first, then some bigger backwards steps. There was a huge event night before last where she actually said that she wanted to go to hospital. I trust her doctor completely...with her life, as he literally saved her life about 4 years ago. He agreed that she needed to go to hospital.
Not sure if her meds need tweaking, or if she just needs some intensive therapy, I know that she will get either or both...whatever she needs. Would you please pray for her?? During visiting time today, she was crying so hard...begging me to take her home. She was very scared because now she is in the teen unit (previously-she was in the children's unit, that was 4 years ago). She was so scared because the other patients were talking about how they had overdosed, how many drugs they had taken....they were cursing alot... my RoseFlower is getting a look at the real world and it's harshness.
She is such a tender, loving, giving soul. She always has been. Even though she is 15, because of her traumas, emotionally she is much younger. And because of the recent regressions... she seems very young emotionally at times--still loving teddy bears, little animal toys, make believe stories... So this culture shock for her is very difficult.
And she is having visual and audio hallucinations. They are very scary to her. She knows that they are not real...but it doesn't make it any easier to hear the words, hear the demons and what they tell her to do....and to see the scary demon-like images that are surrounding her.
Thank you so very much for your prayers. I know that our God is a loving God...I know that nothing happens without Him knowing about it...and I know that all works together for good for those that love Him. And she definitely loves her Jesus. She could only bring in one book and a journal. She packed a whole bag full, but without hesitation, picked her Bible and very willingly left the rest.
Ok...on to other things....we have been creating loads of artwork lately! It is so wonderful for the soul! RoseFlower was going to show me how to take pics on the digital cam and then how to post them on the blog. I may just try and figure another way to post our work. We have been having alot of fun. The colors are just gorgeous!!!
God is so amazing to give us all of these beautiful things (trees, clouds, flowers, different textures, paints, sparkles....it is endless!!)...and give us minds to create and imagine and play with! God is just such a loving and amazing God! I cannot fathom His love for us....every time I try, I am just speechless... He sings over us at night if we ask Him to, He keeps us safe from our enemies, He answers our prayers---that are so much better many times that what we ask for!!!, He holds us and comforts us if we become scared or cry, He forgives us when we mess up...no matter how bad we mess up-He is waiting for us with open arms to love on us and forgive us. I could just go on and on!! Just Praise His Holy Name!!
The past few months, I didn't have any words to write here. I couldn't get them to form coherently, or I was too exhausted and would just fall into bed...talking to my Lord until I fell asleep. At times, I only had a very short period of time to get on my computer. I would go to flickr.com . Anything you can imagine...so many beautiful images are on http://www.flickr.com/ . If you are having a rough go of it... it is wonderful just to go and enter one of your favorite things to search...and it is amazing how many gorgeous pictures you will find of your favorite thing! It is free to open an accout, just takes about a minute, then you can click to make pics your favorites, so you can go back and enjoy them later. Just a really cool place to go and hang out...when you are too stressed to read words, or think, or type words. Somehow the beauty of the colors breaks through that stress...and you can relax, and then hopefully sleep better.
Please know that I am praying for everyone that reads anypart of this. And if you have a specific prayer request, please email me at the address to whichever side it is...maybe the right side??
May God be with you and your families and bless you abundantly! If you celebrate the Fourth of July (in America), I hope you have a wonderful and fun 4th!!
Much love.....MamaRose
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